A few days ago, I saw an endocrinologist and was diagnosed with osteoporosis. Osteoporosis. At 26! I apologize if I’m offending anyone, but I’ve always thought of that as the old lady disease that Sally Field does commercials for. I’m always like, “Hey! The actress from Mrs. Doubtfire!” (such a good movie by the way). If you’re unfamiliar with the term, osteoporosis is basically weak bones and usually affects post-menopausal women, mainly women in their 50s and beyond. However, as a result of prolonged steroid use to treat my various conditions over the past year and a half, I’ve developed the condition at 26 years old, and it’s caused me to develop two compression fractures and bone demineralization.
I was talking with some friends tonight about how much I hate feeling/being so weak. Like, I really hate it. A lot. Struggling to walk up stairs or needing assistance to get into a car feels like a failure and an embarrassment to me, someone who’s always prided herself on being athletic and fully capable of taking care of herself, but that’s the reality of where I’m at right now. A friend texted me a scripture yesterday that really reassured and encouraged me in the midst of all these potentially discouraging circumstances:
Psalm 41:1-3 NIRV
1 Blessed is the one who cares about weak people.
When he is in trouble, the Lord saves him.
2 The Lord will guard him and keep him alive.
He will bless him in the land.
He won't hand him over to the wishes of his enemies.
3 The Lord will take care of him when he is lying sick in bed.
He will make him well again.
Though some of the side effects my body is suffering from are more permanent than others, God has already made me well in so many ways and will continue to heal me. Plus, the Bible is filled with examples of God using people’s weaknesses to do great things or to help them and others grow in incredible ways. So I’m going to try to face my weaknesses and not hold back from asking people for help, while also believing that God will heal me and I will be able to do many of the things I can’t do now. Feels a bit daunting, especially for a classic type-A personality perfectionist such as myself, but check out this scripture:
Luke 10:27 MSG
27Jesus was blunt: "No chance at all if you think you can pull it off by yourself. Every chance in the world if you let God do it."
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